Desire

Happy Saturday everyone. So upon waking this morning I sat on the edge of my bed. Something I do every morning and I had my eyes closed. (This helps with my thinking process lol) and I envisioned myself in a time way before our time of now and these words sprang forth and I decided to share them with everyone on my blog today.
Enjoy

Desire (Time of Past)

Feelings of desire deep inside my soul
Causes trembling at the very thought of you
Passions traveling with urgency
Up anxious thighs
Mmmmmmmm touch me
Do you feel the heat that’s risin'?
The love,
The fire,
Smells of my womanly scent filling the air
School girl like and I do like (it)
Do you know the emotions you've set forth onto me?
Forceful cries begging for touches (yours)
Even if it's just the slightest of them
Subduer of pain that once plagued me,
Replacing it with feelings of undeniable fervor
Unexplainable lust
Pure love
Immaculate lover
Constant hungering for thy King's fervid wrath
Laden with unadulterated ecstasy

It Hurts

Never should abuse be tolerated. It's time we took a stand against abuse of any kind. Here is my story....

The confusion

The misusing

Of my trusting soul

Abusing my being

Ripping me apart

No longer whole

Now thrust into this hole

Black,

Darkness deep

He hit me

A slap was the beginning

Nearly killing me was our ending

Tears falling because I still love you

Believing when you said you only do this to show love

Damn,

I want to be normal

Don't want these scars

Don't want the lies I have to tell

Breakaway, faraway please away from me stay

Didn't know this would be my life

Never knew I'd be too afraid to fight (back)

Broken wings

Had me believing I was nothing

Suppressed my ability to just up and leave

And so I stayed

Endured

Cried

Told the lies

Kept quiet

Dinner on time

Clothes washed and neatly pressed

Laid still as you took me night after night

Until that night it almost became permanent

The punches

The kicking

The spitting

The I hate you's

As I lay silent on the floor gasping for air

Finally realizing I do not want to be here

Eyes closing

Spirit leaving

I'm almost there

Almost free

Freedom

Freedom

Yes,

The light I so clearly saw

Became dark once more

As I heard them say we have a pulse.....

　

The ex affect

The ex affect

I fell in love
Crashed and burned before I could save myself
7 long brutal years of bullshit and sin
Didn't wife me, though he lied and said he would see
He fed me the lines and I memorized them time after time
Dizzy and constipated from his fake ass I love you baby
Got my system overloaded off this dumb shit here
Wide open falling with no safety net
He was that itch I wish I'd never scratched
6'3 devouring my peaches and cream
About the only thing that kept me sing-ing
Guess that's what kept my ass stay-ing
Him playing in the garden which housed my secret treasure
Optical delusions of guilty pleasures
Found myself walking in the opposite direction
Needing another direction from the mess you had me in
Torn between truth and lies
Trying to figure which hurts less
Would it be your touch I miss(ed)?
Our sneaks to the roof or your momma's basement?
Or could I live with the lies
The cheating and misleading
The my battery died in my phone(why you couldn't call)
Or the had to work late excuses
Better yet could I live with letters from your ex?
Or the I'm just there to see my son (CYA= covering your ass)
Damn am I really this dumb?
Or is it my body's just numb?
Too battered to acknowledge the pain
Too tired to continue playing this game
Secret children, marriage to another, the breaking of my heart
All during our 7 together= Reason why you're now "EX"!

why you should buy my book!

Hello everyone, wanted to do another video and this time it focuses on why you should buy my book. I go into detail why you should buy the book as well as how the book came about. I thank you all for listening. Creative Luv, Missy

HE (personal reflection)

Heh everyone, well I always write about the pains of losing love so today I thought I would write about my joys when I "was" in love. The rush, the beauty of it all.
So enjoy

He
By Missy Smith
all rights reserved


He was a beautiful entity
Haunting my spirit sensually
Seducing my mental
Caressing my physical
All things craved by my being
Distance an excitable challenge
For he was hella sexy
Pouring loves rain steadily down my excited soul
Letters relaying sinful thoughts for my eyes only
Red Roof Inn Rendezvous’
4 hours long
Bodies collapsing
Pure exhaustion
Glistening in loves afterglow
Your center encased within my core
Inhaling the scent of you
Causes my intoxication
0.11 way over the legal limits
And yet,
I couldn't put you down
Had to ingest you daily
Sometimes 3, 4 times
Your Mami,
My papi
Hitting notes never knowing existed
The creation of note 13 on (loves) musical scale
Greetings of your kiss
Began my descent into pure bliss
Just the mere thought
And my spine begins tingling
Giggling

That's how I knew I loved you. (back then)

I call on you Poets(Reflectionists and Expressionists)

I wanted to do a tribute to all those before me who have laced page after page with truths of triumphs and trials. Sorrows and Surviving. I thank my inspirations before me who have shown me the way to express my unique gift....

I call on you Poets (Reflectionists and Expressionists)
by Missy Smith
all rights reserved (yes this is copy written) lol

I call on you Poets(Reflectionists and Expressionists) of far
As I wish upon the pens of those before me to shine their energy's
continuously throughout my being
Keeping me sharp with verse
Free flowing with rhyme
Reasons of many
Seasons poetically singing
I call on you Poets(Reflectionists and Expressionists) of far
Loudly,
Hear my pleas
As I drench thy page full of truths
Pictures captured from written tools
Ink spilling diligently across skies that bear my magic
Light years away are thee past this catastrophic (storm)
Brewing inside the mind of this Golden Child
Reflectively Speaking

Heh everyone, first off let me say Happy Tuesday. Yes we made it through another tiring week. So my weekend consisted of me writing for my next book that I am so excited about. Going a little different with this one but still its me 100%. So I have been having these weird dreams about my Ex. (N0 I do not want him back lorrrl) laughing out really really really loud okkkkkkkkkkkk. But I was talking to a friend who told me its because he is thinking of me and those thoughts are being transmitted because he and I were once so close. We shared the same Birthday, was supposed to get married on our Birthdays (guess he forgot that memo he sent me before). But in all honesty it worked out for the best because he showed his true colors. Allowing me to see he was indeed not the man (I use that term very loosely) I was meant to end up with. No, there is a better purpose out here in this universe for me so I happily await it and him. But in the meantime, me thinking of him and our good and bad times brought about this reflection/poem so I needed to write it down and so I share it with all of you. Enjoy
Luv, Missy
P.S. this is my up to dang on long look haahahah

Strong desires
As I replay us back in time
Needs you back then satisfied
I was positively yours
You were negatively mine
Now, she has you
Body, soul and mind
Still, it does not take away the love my heart has/had for you
But for sanity's  sake, I have to let go
Let you go
Keeping the past past while making room for my future
Allowing my wings to strengthen while flying upwards and onwards
Off into brighter skies surrounded by star filled dreams
For your kisses no longer mean to me a thing
Your touches now hers no more do I hunger for
Off now are my rose colored glasses
As I see you completely as meant
No longer my dream
Yet forever my nightmare......